sell it on the weekend

Oh, hey there. For quite a while I've been this angry girl who has hated all men except my papa. Recently though, I met this guy and my God, what a friggin sweetheart. And I think he's given me a new perspective on men all around. I mean, yes, men are horn dogs. But it's not their fault. And women are too. In fact, in my new relationship I have the bigger sexual appetite than he does. It's embarrassing. But then I tell myself that it's nothing to be embarrassed about. Anyways, I guess I've always known that yes, the majority of guys are good and decent. It's just that I always found the bad ones. Looking back, it has been my fault because I had a sign on my forehead that said, "willing to put up with bullshit and abuse for a temporary boost in self-esteem". A few nights ago, a few friends and I (not to be named) watched porn because we were worried we were bad at sex because we've never really been taught to know what we're doing, right. I mean, I guess we've read Cosmo since we were 12 but something tells me what they say is bullshit. So we watched the porn. We chose amateur porn because we figured that it would be more realistic, y'know. Man oh man, thought. It was disgusting. And on the side it had these flashing images of oily asses. Something tells me that this porn thing is bullshit too. I haven't seen the full realm of it or anything but just this little taste of it was really disturbing. And I realize that sex doesn't look good ever, anyways. But there was something really tacky and nasty about the stuff we watched. And I know that if tacky and nasty is what you like then you should go for it. I can't explain the badness of what we watched though. I was thoroughly disappointed. I didn't learn a damn thing, no new moves, no new positions, no new toys to use. I only learned how demeaning this shit was.